Monday, September 29, 2008

It took me awhile to fact check this-

But I did- and I am now posting it. . .on this day. . .WARNING- the Dire Straits song has a slur in it. . .and since it is not against Palin. . .well, you know. . .maybe just mute it and watch. . .it is verifiable theory. . . google the terms. . .yes, it is pro McCain- but if you can just look at it from an ECONOMICAL perspective. . .this is not about the vote, it is about the ecomony. . .

L'Shannah Tovah. . .





A good year- as we here under the umbrella get ready to celebrate the new year, and reflect on our paths on Yom Kippur. . .I am so thankful for you all. . .my babies, and my older ones as well. . .
Love from Ema. . .:)




Sunday, September 28, 2008

I am way TOO happy. . .

About a wildcard slot. . .but if they PRETEND like it is the beginning of a new season, they will be ON FIRE. . .and win the whole thing. . .right?

Sigh FUCK IT I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!! I do not care how long they are there. . .

This so made me laugh


Ain't it the truth. . .
My shirt would have my picture, surrounded by the trappings of parenthood. . .with the words "Dr. Mom" on it. . . .gotta love irony!

No shit, for REAL


This could pretty much be my life now. . .rules are made to be broken, unless you are some sort of mother type. . .
I will explain;
Evenings under the umbrella have been. . .strained. . .umm, yeah, let's go with that. . .strained. . .shredded. . .complete hell on crack. . .
My assignment this semester has been hell on crack- and I am just hanging on, add on NO assistance of ANY KIND in the evenings. . .and well, it is me, and 3 end of the day strung out on exhaustion kids. . .one of them VERY whiny (guess who? Give you a hint. . .rhymes with Nocoa), one of them VERY needy (Rhymes with Mutter) and one of them. . .oh hell, Precious is going through his "back to school meltdown a day" cycle. . .so yeah, nights have been the WORST.
Friday late afternoon- school book fair, and I have 3 kids, end of the week crazy tired. . .well, let your imagination wander, it was bad. . .get home and Precious mounts a protest as only he can. . .a "stay up in". . .hell NO I won't GO . . .to bed. . . and he did not, not until 1am. . .or so. . .and yes, I was right there in it, up for almost 24 glorious motherhood hours. . .and up at 6 with the other. . .after going to bed myself at. . .wait for it. . .3am.
Have you ever tried to relate this crap to someone who, even though is a parent, sees this as the way "motherhood is"? That is just what happens to mothers. . .right? So, what happens when mothers have to explain to. . .oh, BOSSES. . .that well, you know how motherhood is. . .and if you are female and not a mother. . .this is how people look at how you might turn out. . .even if you have no plans to become a mother. . .you MIGHT. . .and, well, you know how THEY are. . .always with their excuses about "kids". . .sheesh. . .
But this can and does happen, too often I am faced with the very REAL consequences of rule breaking, and I guess at this stage of the game, I thought I would be used to it. . .but DAMMIT, why do I have to do this choosing thing so often?
Why is it a "do well at work OR do well at parenting" situation? Why can't I do both? The world may never know. . .but hey,. at least my role exit from the "party" seems not so bad now. . .I would rather wade through the most vile UNSUPPORTED smears about Palin and Obama for days than go through another night like that. . .ohh, my bad. . .did I just say that I found that particular motherhood experience wanting. . .???? Oh dear, let me clarify that. . . .nah, fuck it, it did suck, and there is no way I can spin it. . .bad bad Rainmom. . .sheesh!

Friday, September 26, 2008

Gut Shabbos. . .


Shalom. . .I need it. . . happy night to all. . .no matter what your party!

The Rainmom-:)

They won't ask you what party you belong to. . .

Many of the conversations I have been having about the Palin as VP choice have been stunning, not so much because of the actual sides- which, quite honestly have become tedious on both sides, with some decidedly "liberated" women almost fanatical in their hate of her supposed "anti woman's right to choose" and the "next best thing to Hillary" side which matches the anger found on the other side. . .yadda yadda yadda. . .

What has been most telling is the compartmentalization of the debate, and people like me, who see gender/women's issues as transcending politics. . .are attacked from both sides, but mostly from those who would most likely describe themselves as liberal, and who are TOTALLY Democrats. . .the party of tolerance. . .

I even had someone tell me, with a straight face, that they have never been the kind of person who supported women, just because they were women, but who were at the same time telling me I needed to support Obama. . .for women. Huh? Puleeze, if you want to sell your soul for party unity, go right the fuck ahead, I will not be doing so.

What this debate shows me that after, if ever, gender discrimination is addressed in the social structures, it will only happen when women can look beyond their own politics and party and see the big picture.

Is anyone really worried about Roe v Wade? Seriously? Puleeeze, get your head out of the poisoned spam about Palin and use your brain! You believe EVERYTHING your listserv says? And for those who forward this unsubstantiated crap without conscience, what kind of scholars ARE you??? You are no better than the people who do the same things about people that YOU identify with. . .do you LIKE this treatment? Do you love it when people loop lies about you, and send it to everyone. . .and never care if any of it is true? If not- STOP DOING IT, otherwise, if you are going to continue spreading the smear, then STFU when people do it to those groups you identify with. . .you know who you are. . .stop. . .you do

Ellie M, in feminist theory class, taught from the perspective that, well, if you look at the waves of the movement, you see the ebb and flow- and there was a thought, a theory, that one of the greatest threats to the success of any movement, but especially the women's movement, is the inability to give a shit about the issues of women outside your group. Working mom, special needs mom, gay mom, single mom, liberal mom, conservative mom. . .pick your group. . .advocate for your cause. . .and face the wrath of women. . .who want you to vote for one thing, want you to be pro choice, pro life. . .and continue to fragment the issue of gender issues further. . .and so long as you cannot or will not recognize the common ground between your groups. . .you will distract yourself with attacking Palin rather than asking what can this do for women.

I am no expert, and to be honest, there are many things I have yet to puzzle out. . .but

I do know this, no working mother has ever had the chance to try to do this job, and on the off chance that she get the chance, I am much less scared having her for a VP. . .Obama as president is much scarier, and before Palin, many of those now attacking me were as horrified as I about him . . .but, hey any Democrat is better than a GOP woman. . .

If she get elected, and she becomes the universal worker of Acker, and is able to continue on in a credible way, I can only hope that this will help women everywhere. Even better, if she brings "credibility" to the role of mother. . .beyond the sound bite "of course motherhood is important, even if we, as women devalue it on a daily basis. . .until we become mothers" and seriously, how can society really come to value motherhood, if women, as a group, do not support that credibility. . .no matter what, THINK of the effects on what it means to be a working mom in society, what would the world look like if the VP had the freedom to be a mom and be proud of it? Not weak or less of a success because of it?

Will we, as a society ever get beyond "of COURSE mothers are important, that is why we have Mother's Day" and really value the work? The attacks on Palin reveal that my time spent raising baby humans will mean nothing. . .to society when measuring my worth. . .shouldn't it count for something?

Letterman, you are an ass tool, really.

Sigh, thank G-d for Shabbos!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Dublin

So many comments come to mind. . .:)

Note to Dave. . .

Dear Dave,

I have watched you for years, and oh, can I call you Dave? I hope so, but today is a sad day, as I am ending my relationship with you and your sponsors, it is painful but is must be done. Your rant about the fact that SENATOR McCain, who is running for office but still a paid member of the government, had to opt out of your show in order to do his job is a disgrace.
If he had shown up, you would have asked him why he was not in Washington doing his job, because he chose to do his job, you attack him, and as a Democrat, I am disgusted by people like you. You then bring on, in his place, a disgusting embarrassment to liberal people everywhere- KO. . .who's behavior got him kicked off coverage for the rest of the election. He is classless, and your decision to "get back at" John McCain by putting this person on demonstrates how fanatical you are in your bitterness and hate. For the first time, you have made me really ashamed to be an American Democrat- you and Obama's other supporters who have sunk to lying, forwarding e mails by the hundreds in order to attack and smear a family. . .you have allowed your show to be hijacked for that illicit purpose, and it is the last straw.

You have sunk to a new low, which I did not think possible, given your hypocritical treatment of Palin. . .
I am done with the Democratic party, and now, I am done with you. Thanks for the years of entertainment, I have watched you for years, but you are now as repugnant as you once were brilliant, and I will not watch your show anymore. I bid you good luck and good bye.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

My happy places

Boston Harbor
Whale watching Atlantic Ocean
Salem Harbor, MA
Listening to David and Co.
Bad memory- woman in black shirt running away after trying to hit me


Happy memory- I saw people who were running for office. . .in person
Ok- I will explain the situation with the sign assault. I was dressed in my Mythbuster Tee shirt, and jeans- no McCain ANYTHING on me. See I was going for the "undecided" look- you know, the coveted swing vote. . .apparently the "swing" from my Obama "friend" took a literal turn. . .with Change I can Believe in. . .leveled at my head. . .
So- I saw the Changeling in front of a woman in a wheel chair. Unlike me, the woman in the wheelchair was totaly decked out McCain/Palin. . .and this Obama "supporter" was blocking her way on the ramp. . .and in her face. Which pissed me off- so I told her it was a public street and she needed to step away from the woman and let her pass. . .that is when she swung the sign at me. . .
and yes, she lived to tell the tale. . .but I got it on video, and called the cops. . .
can you imagine if anyone who supported McCain did that to a wheelchair bound Obama supporter? But for some reason, respect for the rights of those supporting McCain and treating them with dignity and respect and such. . .for this crowd. . .too much. . . weird, that is SO not the change I want. . .

Precious Moments

The Zoo Butter and Cocoa (Cocoa Butter?) and Muffin

Nubble Light House- Maine
Sunset in Boston- Whale watching tour
Gymnastics for Cocoa.

We had an incredible summer, and I need to keep that in mind as I wade through the semester. . .

Prelim, Baby, Prelim!!!!

Home to roost. . .

My poor students, well, some of them! They are really worried, as am I, about this mess in the economy. . .with good reason.

I can honestly say that this is the day I decided, for sure, to vote for McCain. When it became unclear if the agreement could be reached, he did not hesitate- he resumed the role he is currently being paid to do, a U.S. Senator, and suspended his election efforts in order to go do his job.

Obama? No, he felt that "multitasking" is an essential skill- and debates with crashing markets and a fight in. . .where is that again. . .oh YES the Senate, where he is supposed to be. . .doesn't need him all that much. . .after all, OBAMA is running for president. . .he cannot be deterred by a silly thing like a crisis!

He told Lauer that his healthcare "initiative" will have to be put on hold. . .wonder if that is the CHANGE I need. . . I wonder if the Changelings know the message is "changing" and his new world order. . .needs fiscal help. . .

sigh!

Monday, September 22, 2008

Stay Classy SNL and its "supporters"

http://elections.foxnews.com/2008/09/22/snl-palin-incest-joke-falls-flat-in-sketch-lampooning-new-york-times/


I do not know how many people have been raving about this show. . .and how this is all in good fun. . .but seriously, have you all lost your mind???


If you need reminding how subjective "humor" is. . .here you go

This aired the day Precious was born. . .and it was the first night of Chanukuh- pay special attention to the "forgive our Jewish friends for killing out lord" and type "christ killer" into a search engine. . .FUNNY. . . .not!

http://snltranscripts.jt.org/99/99gchanukah.phtml

The content of his character. . .









What a disgrace. . .intimidate your opponents and remove their rights to free speech and hey, why not, free will, Obama's will or no will?


Democrats, do you REALLY think this is going to get us PUMAs back? Silly SILLY party. . .


There is not enough guilt of any kind to make me vote for this person. He has never done a thing that leads me to believe that he gives a damn about anyone but himself and his own interests. . .so why can't I vote that way? Because the PARTY says so? Puleeeeeeze!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Brave New Mothering. . .

Yes, the Rainmom is AGAIN questioning her educational goals. . .with the end of the month looming, money sooooooooo short, and it just seems like I am ALWAYS working, all summer, and well, for squat pay. . .and I wonder if this is all worth it.

I know it is, but from this point on- I am not going to question whether or not I SHOULD be doing it. . .I am just going to wonder HOW I am going to get it done. Special needs child or not, having kids, so WHAT??

I have come this far. . .and well, the die is cast.

I have a 111 entry reading list ready to go- with 5 more articles to be added. . .prelims- I am SO coming for YOU!!!!!

I will post the video of the Obama supporter trying to hit me with her sign. . .but I will just give a shout out to all the Sarah Haters in Blogland. . .Liberate. . .with profanity. . .by the band called Disturbed. . .

Liberate your mind
You motherfucker, you're so narrow-minded
So narrow-minded
Liberate your mind
Now motherfucker, will you liberate your mind
This time
Bold motherfucker
Don't limit your mind
Can't you see that the pace
Has fallen behind
All the hate in your heart
Will be leaving you blind
So bold motherfucker
Don't you limit your mind
This time
Waiting, for your modern messiah
To take away all the hatred
That darkens the light in your eye
Still awaiting. I
"Out of Zion shall come forth a law
And the word of the Lord from Jerusalem
Nation shall not raise sword against nation
And they shall not learn war anymore
For the mouth of the Lord hath spoken"
Waiting, for your modern messiah
To take away all the hatred
That darkens the light in your eye
Still awaiting.

Snippets of life. . .from the Rainmom

Word to their mother. . .
Waiting to wiggle
Sweeetie girl
Multitasking KIA
Inspiration. . .no matter what her politics. . .


Off the rail- without the gloves


So, yeah, a primal reaction to the Palin Derangement Syndrome(PDS). . .who would have believed that someone as low key and even keel as I could react in such a way. . .

Something just snapped in the aftermath of this event, and the reality that was will never be again. . .a new reality has been started. I will never, ever look at the gender issues of today like I did before. . .

See, in the old reality, I was working under the assumption that when people were "pro choice", they really meant free choice, the right to choose. . .and even if that meant someone making a choice they did not agree with. . .

To be fair, I really did question the support of women who considered families and roles that go with it to be so beneath them. . .and who curled their lips at my mere mention of my kids and such. . .the unspoken rule that said that while we, as a department, revile the Universal worker concept of Acker. . .damn it shut the hell up about your effing kids. . .and oh, of course I can get through grad school, if this loser mom can so can I. . . the lowered expectations for me. . .from my cohort. . .and that condescending attitude if I had to miss class, and the belief that not having childcare was "avoiding my contractual obligations, I still have the email, Bill!. . .well, you know how it is, she has leprosy. . .I mean kids. . .which ok, fine, your choice. . .BUT, do NOT come crying to me when you yourself want/have kids!! Do not try to pretend that you did not treat me like shit, that you did not belittle me or underestimate me. . .and DO NOT expect me to make things better for you, in fact, if you are a one of those "delicate" women when you are pregnant. . .whining constantly about how "sick" you are, and skipping work. . .you will be comforted, but I will do my best to distance myself from you, since my jobs over the course of having my family did not qualify for "incomplete" and if I just stopped going to those jobs, I would be fired. . .and as I was the one paying the bills, and the insurance, THAT was not an option! And until things change, this will have to be the way things are- I worked my ass off to get where I am, and if you are going to ruin it by acting like you are the only one who had it rough. . .feh! Grab your saltines and get er DONE.. . .after all, if someone like me can do it 6 times over. . . so can you. Right? Maybe it will sink in how fucking HARD this all is, but ONLY after it has happened to you, apparently that is the only way mother's issues become important for some women. . .when they find themselves on the RECEIVING end of their own bad medicine. . . and that is exactly how it will continue as long as we make the political default assumption that parties will ever care as much as we do about our situations. . .ya think?

However, this is really a new world for me- I had always assumed that since things were rough all over in the female spectrum, that no matter the personal politics, we could refrain from being Roes in a barrel, and not pull one another down. That we would look at Palin's chances and even if we could not agree on politics, we could agree that in the seat of executive power, we could get some sort of difference in perspective. . .a woman in this office would be a step forward. . .she could either be the universal worker, with a stay at home dad there for the kids, and reconfigure the whole caretaker role for men. She could spotlight the work/job reality for working women, out loud, and instead of aromatherapy, maybe something else could be suggested to make it easier. . .to be a woman who works, not a working woman.

Alas, it was/is the WRONG woman, I now see that, and for all of my assumptions, I now know that while I am expected to support each and every liberal cause and party. . .no allowances will be made for my right to choose differently. My status as woman is a start, but it is really my politics that are important. . .and the bigger picture will be ignored by the very people who spent the better part of their lives screaming about sexist unfair treatment and the right to choose. . .guess I should have read the fine print. I now realize that while I am supposed to support women's issues that I do not agree with, due to politics, others are free to laugh behind their hands at my belief that I have accomplished anything. . .after all, I chose to have kids, what did I expect. . of COURSE my chances and opportunities will be limited based on that. . .NOT!!! What complete bullshit.

See, for the PDS sufferers, it is ONLY politics that matters.

This political basis for "support" for diverse positions in the gender realm is terribly problematic for me- under this model, I am only allowed to support what the party does. . .and I cannot, will not do that.

So- I may get around to posting the photos from the McCain rally where an Obama supporter tried to attack me, for real, and I was not wearing anything to support the ticket- I was only asking them to get out of my way, so I could hear their message. The supporter tried to keep me from doing that, and when I told her to 'back her change sign out of my way" she tried to hit me with it. . .all for change sake. Yes, change! From freedom of speech and the right to present political views to threats of violence from the Change party. . .niiiiiiice.

The vile vicious attacks on this ticket that are as sexist as they are political really look scary up close, and while I think Obama will surpass Clinton in moral bankruptcy, Obama's changelings will be the ones to watch, no matter what the election results are, a fine choice between 1984 liberal Orwellian stylings and 4 years of accusations of racism. . .yeah, I was BORN a cynic. . .

So, the gloves are off now- I will not be supporting a party anymore- fuck that, my party doesn't support me, it supports its own interests, which is the height of elitism. . .

Gloves are off- enjoy the ride! I know I will, with every ounce of my 6 kids having, pro life choosing, mom role loving, religion clinging, XX having heart!

I am woman, hear me THINK!

Friday, September 19, 2008

Shalom, Shabbat


Taking a Shabbat break from the madness of the election. The rally yesterday was beyond informative. . .
I will enlighten. But my family and I wish you a rest, and peace in this crazy world.
Shabbat Shalom!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Dear Elizabeth

I stand by my post about Jesus- his followers DID kill in his name for centuries. . .and if that is not destroying communities, I do not know what is. . .

But Jesus did not do anything? Really? He should not be held accountable for the actions of his minions? Who should?!

Surely you are not suggesting that people be held accountable. . .that would bring you dangerously close to. . .my side.

Jesus was not a community builder, he died a Jew, having never "practiced" the religion founded in his name (a Jewish guy named Saul. . .you know him as Paul did that. . .road to Damascus. . .)

So, in the future- post these wonderful little rants with my own rants. . .attacking me via e mail is ok, but I will not post it here. . .out of respect for your privacy. Wish Sarah Palin had been accorded the same respect by the "intolerant tolerant" on the left.

http://elections.foxnews.com/2008/09/18/palins-e-mail-hacked/


M

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Snapshot unawares. . .

Should be an "A", but this will do. . .







Respect?

SO glad he did this piece. . .

http://pajamasmedia.com/blog/author/timothyfurnish/


I cannot begin to describe how ill this "comparison" made me. . .for Jews, Jesus was a community DESTROYER! And his minions have been killing my people for centuries. . .but he was a "community orgainzer" Puleeeeeeeeeeze!

A big big BIG reason I think Obama is a poser. .

http://embeds.blogs.foxnews.com/2008/09/17/obama-brings-in-millions-at-beverly-hills-fundraisers/

Bitter gun religion clinging person I am. . .I have a problem with people who make promises they do not keep.

To be fair, I was so not into his message early on- I get dizzy following his flip flops on every issue that matters to me, and on his DEAD silence on other issues facing us gun toters. . .I was also appalled to hear the lack of support for him translated into racism charges. . .disagreeing with the message of a Black person is racist? Even worse, people telling my aunts (who are white) to vote for Obama "no matter what" because their husbands are Black, you know, for the kids. . .NOT. My aunt Rose was horrified bu that statement, stating he, like every other person running had to EARN her vote. Is that so wrong? Apparently so for some. . .the ABB position will not serve anyone well. How demeaning to suggest that because she has biracial children, she should vote for someone lke her kids. . .what kind of logical sense does that make???? Sheesh!

But I digress- I think EVERY American should have the right to attend these dinners. . .oh, wait, if that happens, who will serve the rich donors their meals??? CLINGERS!!!!!

Ah, a place in on the Change bus for me. . .in the back or underneath (as the Zionist Jew)!!

When you lose your moral compass. . .

http://elections.foxnews.com/2008/09/17/clinton-blindsided-palin/

In one swift move, Hillary has showed the extent of her blind devotion to a corrupt system of entitlement, in this one act she has said through her actions "I simply CANNOT take a moral stand against antisemitism and human rights for gays (who do live in Iran, in hiding) or women (honor killings) as long as SHE/GOP is invited too. But, I stand for change and bipartisianship. . .not one second before that. . ."

What a sad day for the "Party of my Father". . . .

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

By, of and for. . .the right kind of person. . .

The rest of you? No rules, mores, folkways, decency. . .

Enjoy the trip down "memory holes" galore. . .please note, for the record, the vile drek of a Kos post about the "proof" that Palin is "grandma". . .disgusting!!!


http://littlegreenfootballs.com/weblog/lgf-search.php?searchWith=lgf&searchWhat=entries&maxPerPage=25&therange=&searchString=dailykos.com

Monday, September 15, 2008

Change you can believe in. . .

http://www.opensecrets.org/news/2008/09/update-fannie-mae-and-freddie.html

Oh, wait. . .nevermind, look at all the DEMOCRATS on this list (republicans are supposed to be there. . .remember?)

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

McCain/Palin to visit Green Bay Thursday

I am GOING!!!!!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

The Scarlet Letter A. . .21rst century style

Nothing will mark a fallen woman faster in this election than the new version of the Scarlet letter A. . .for ambition. of course. Especially if you are a parent. . .of a special needs child. . .and it would appear that the body politic that is handing them out to women like Sarah Palin are the LEAST likely of usual suspects. . .the women themselves. . .love it when we are our own worse enemy.

Oh, Dowd, O'Brien, Couric, women who, in some cases have had to put up with this EXACT same treatment in their own lives (take a bow Katie, how are those ratings going. . .?)

Couric's husband dies, leaving her with 2 young children. . .did she curl up and wait to join him, or did she continue her job, and even if this CBS thing crashes even further, she STILL did what she did with small kids who were mourning their dad. . .

Is this horrific treatment of Palin and her family because Palin is on the wrong side of the political fence? Really, is that IT? The reason the KosmoNUTS on Dailykos can make the most horrible of accusations and attacks their minds can think up, and Camp Changeling is all quiet? No hand across the aisle for the sake of common decency and manners? How about age of consent? That baby will be 6 months old soon, can't we have a cease fire on the whole "she's really his grandma" smears until he has been around a half a year? Please, Camp Change? No MORE eBAY ads calling him a prop, while ignoring the TOTALLY staged "adorable" hi daddy moment DNC style. . .

As I prepare for the final few tasks to graduate with my doctoral degree, I am reminded every time I am on campus as to how my work is viewed by others. . .comments like "well, if YOU can do it, I know I can" Really? How do you know that? Ohh, because I am a mom AND I go to school, so if someone with my liabilities can make it work, YOU can. . .riiiiiiiight. Cause having kids makes all this shit EASIER to read and write about, and wow that whole research process is a BREEZE, as long as you have that special needs kid, like Lucky Charms . . . . Inspiring view of my life's work, huh? But hey, my kids are REALLLLLY cute, especially the princess, she'll make some guy really happy some day. . .grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

The A for ambitious women who continue to make history by not behaving remains, scarlet as ever, and a pox on women who are so ensnared by their own mystification that they take up the very weapons used against them to throw as the party dictates. . .cause its for the kids, you know.

Shanda!!!

You Too can be Sexist!

Or at the very least, hold views that are. . .many female members of the MSM are trying very hard to distance themselves from charges of their sexism and bias. . .sorry, but being female doesn't mean you cannot be seen as sexist. Just as men can be feminists, women can be sexist. . .so, try again. . .

See, it is sexist to question if women with children can work at high level jobs. . .isn't that what is at the heart of the glass ceiling? So, if you are counting on your Democratic Party affiliation and your XX genes to avoid being questioned about this talking point. . .not gonna work. If you have children, or you do not, or you never want them EVER, doesn't matter, choosing to have them by any means, should not mean you are shuttled onto a mommy track with a socially defined stopping point "NO MOTHERS WITH CHILDREN BEYOND THIS POINT!!!!!!" Do you even read what you write, or listen to what you say????

Having lower expectations for women because they are moms, or worse yet, attacking them for refusing to submit to them because they are female IS sexist, no matter what party you belong to. . .and even worse? If the GOP were saying it, you would be FURIOUS. . .

Sexist and elitist. . .stay class Democratic party!

Change I can believe in?!

Change I can believe in, you say? How the hell would YOU know Democratic Party members and Barack Obama? What change do you offer? Economic? How so? You mean equal outcomes for all- regardless of effort, skills, or time spent? Umm, no that is NOT the change I was thinking of, but my change will bring that about, I HOPE.

Change in Washington? How so? A more balanced perspective, how so? You have a campaign of change, but as yet, I see no change from business as usual. . .that mentality of needing Washington based experience in order to be taken seriously as a leader. . .which means that many of us who are looking at Sarah Palin with pride and kinship are not qualified either. Despite my time on the job of raising the future, and the methods and skills I have fine tuned in order to make our life work, I am not worthy. I had an unplanned teen pregnancy myself, I kept the baby, I have a special needs child and I work outside the home. . .with the blatant sexism spewing forth from those Democratic mouths. . .I realize that the party I most identified with has no clue who I am and what I want, but still thinks it can tell me what to do. Ignore the messages of the parties and JUST VOTE DEMOCRAT. . .even if they did dismiss the front runner candidate in favor of the delegate choice. Popular vote says that the wrong candidate is running for president on the Democratic ticket, do not think we have not noticed how gender bias and cronyism have stolen this facet of the election process.

You rail against Palin as if her close proximity to us common people was a mark against her character, and her children have been savaged in the news, and on blogs rabid in their support of Obama and the candidate for Change has piled on insult after insult of his own, and this is the politics of change?

Change I can believe in values the role and status of mother. . .woman. . .and rewards the skills that come with raising baby humans. So long as gendered measures are used to determine worth and acumen for the public sector, there will be no change for women like me. The ones who made career choices based on family obligations, the ones who continue to suffer from the tacit sexism that CONTINUES to tell a SAHM "oh, so you don't work?" or worst of all telling special needs kids to do their best, while expecting the mothers of those kids to somehow accept something less. . .

End to the gendered measures of "success" and experience" and a FULL appreciation and respect for a working mom's life education and skill set. . .THAT is change I can believe in!

Friday, September 12, 2008

Shabbat SHALOM

Mother lights the Sabbath candles and all the children stand around her they cast a glance to the candlesticks full of light and warmth and love
Mother gives a blessing ‘Shabbat Shalom' and mother prays ‘Shabbat Shalom' Mother wishes ‘Shabbat Shalom' to all her family
Mother lights the Sabbath candles she closes and covers her eyes and all the children slowly, slowly whisper a prayer in their hearts Mother lights the Sabbath candles and the sun is already turned towards the sea dusk will fall from above but light will remain in our homes forever.

The Die is cast- My company remain loyal to the Democratic principles of fair play and equality, and the spirit of duty and kinship



And for that- we are banished.
Really, the last straw was the letter to the editor- and the mentality that because I am a woman, I need to "be careful" and not assume that Palin is the Hillary of the GOP. My G-d!!! The gall!
I have had problems with the more liberal members of the party for a long time. In 2003, in my office, in grad school, the "safe zone" stickers that promised that it was an equality zone. . .for the like minded. Hearing my fellow students deride other students for their "backward" and "intolerant" and my personal favorite "ignorant uneducated" views, and still wonder why many students felt out of touch with their educators. Myseld included. I often wondered how many students approached our door, and decided not to enter, because of the blatant bias displayed right next to the rainbow stickers. I think of my son, in his world studies class, when the professor spent an entire class period ranting against Jews and Israel a la Mel Gibson. . .and the powerlessness he felt, wanting to speak up, but feeling outnumbered. . .and on and on.
Democratic ideals, to me, should include extending a hand to others, even if they disagree, ESPECIALLY if they disagree. There is nothing at all different in the change I see flowing from the mouths of those who support Obama, and his nasty turn in the past few weeks has really shown me a glimpse of what life will be like for those who will not "change" for the sake of change. I get the feeling Obama and his supporters will somehow feel entitled to some payback, especially the followers that I have contact with, payback will be a bitch for seditious bitches like me. . .
For too long, the message has been, you are free to believe what you want. . .as long as you agree with us, if not, you are a ____________phobe and a ___________ (fill in your diss of choice).
I have always been an independent, and for many years, this hegemony of ideology in the Democratic party has felt more like V for Vendetta than We the People. You are now a traitor, or at the very least suspect, if you do not bash America and Israel, you are a phobic if you question anything on the basis of your personal beliefs, and do not even get me started on religion. . .as I am a bitter clinger oner (or Klingon) I am not to be trusted. Never mind I have never owned a gun in my life. . .but have fired a few.
Right now, mainstream media is trying very hard to convince the American people "why they need change" and when I think about the changes his followers have in store for people like me. . .I shudder.
Right now, at the very least, I have the audacity to believe in the American people.
It is still a free country, right?

Letter to the editor- Names have been changed. . .:)

A woman tried to caution me about not letting my feminine wiles cloud my judgement. . .feh!!!


It was with surprise and disgust that I saw someone felt the need to caution me to be careful that my little old feminine head not be turned by Sarah Palin, and I am shocked it was a woman. The fact that pinko feels the need to caution educated, ambitious women like me to not fall into the XX (not XY as pinko erroneously states) trap is EXACTLY the problem with the Democratic party in general.

The assumption that women, when presented with a female candidate with moxie and ideas, should ignore her because she is of the wrong party is not only narrow minded, it speaks to the paternalistic behavior of this campaign being trotted out by the Democratic party. People like pinko and the attitudes they hold are making me look elsewhere for political representation and as an Independent, I have no qualms about looking at Palin as a person, not a party member.

In addition to her condescending tone, she also uses bogus information in her letter as fact. The shoddy research is clearly due to pinko bias against Palin simply because she is not a Democrat, and that is partisanship at its most damaging.

John McCain’s courage led to VP choice that I can support. As the parent of a special needs child myself, she is a role model in strength and determination, and dare I say ambition. It Is because of party games that Hillary is not running, and that cannot be blamed on the GOP, just as it is not the GOP’s fault that their candidate was the only one willing to accord a woman the opportunity to lead. pinko would caution individuals to follow the Democratic lead quietly, without comment or question- this woman respectfully declines to do so.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Ahem

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/26532147/

Now MOVE ON WITH IT!!!!!

09-11-01



For my fellow Americans lost in the attacks
For my fellow Americans who lost loved ones in the attack
For my brothers and other fellow Americans who are preventing further attacks. . .


I remember, this year, and every year, Never forget again. . .

Sins of the Mother. . .and other tales of woe. . .

Rant on

This debate about this VP pick of McCain's is just so interesting. . .and cathartic. . .for a number of reasons.

First, Mainstream media- gotta love it. Spends a lot of time and energy attacking Palin and her family, right on down to little Trig. . .and this is what you get;

http://hosted.ap.org/dynamic/stories/P/PALIN?SITE=WIMIL&SECTION=HOME&TEMPLATE=DEFAULT

Sheltered??? OMG- the clueless strike again. . .

While it seems so long ago- and for you youngsters it was, 23 years, this current debate brings it back like yesterday. . .I found out I was having my first child fall 1985, I was 15.

The most cruel irony is despite what everyone thought of me, this was not me acting like a slut- it was me, in a dangerous situation, with no information, and by the time all was said and done, I lost my virginity AND my immediate future all at once.

I never thought about having it "taken care of" I do not, nor have I ever thought that way. Actions have consequences, no matter how they occur. Funny, this SAME sense of responsibility is an ASSET in some spheres. . .but I digress.

So, got kicked out, you know, cause I was a slut, had the baby, went on AFDC, went to night school and got my diploma. . .not a GED. Went to tech college, became a nurse, passed the licence exam, got a job. I got married, had more kids, and eventually made it back to college, and well, the rest as they say is history.

Why the info? Because I made a choice, and apparently, the pro choice people I have been talking to feel that the only REAL choice is to have an abortion, like a litmus test, or jump in ceremony. . .if I were a REAL woman, I would have made the "right" choice. . .which I am now finding out does exist in the minds of some women. Almost this sense of "well, abortion IS legal, why on earth did you not have one?" (that was actually said to me recently)

I am not sure why, but those that I have been reading about and speaking with in person seem to think that if enough people choose to have their kids. . .even with all of this support to have the abortions, then abortion is just another choice, not THE choice? Isn't that always what it has been? Why am I any less a woman, feminist, or person because I could not have one, even when I had the right to, and even if I had all of these people willing to support that choice?

I thought that by making the choice I did, even with all that came with it, I was standing up for what I believed in, that I was not going to be someone who said one thing and did another. . .I thought that the whole point of Roe v was to give woman a choice, not de facto laws of the mind that say otherwise. . .

And to question the parenting of Palin because her daughter got pregnant? Wow, times have changed! I was the slutty whore, and my poor parents were pitied among their group. . .now we can blame the parent if the teen mom keeps her kid. . .full circle. . .sheesh.

Rant off:)

Case in point. . .

IEPs are supposed to be a tool, a guide for those charged with the awesome task of teaching the special needs child - and for as long as I have been attending these 3 hour meetings. . .those in the room NEVER are the same people who end up working with Precious. . .and this year is no different.

Precious has a new/old thing- he kisses people. We tell him no, and he stops. If you make it a joke or you are cutsie poo, he will keep doing it, which I explained at the IEP in May- well his new teacher is on leave- so a teacher that retired. . .7. . .YEARS . . .ago is his long term sub. . .until the end of NOVEMBER. . .and here is the note I get yesterday

"we are working on Precious not kissing people. Would you please send a laminated picture of you and his dad, so he can kiss that during the day? Thanks SO much"

WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING??? Do other children carry laminated pictures of their parents around to kiss? No? Then why the hell would you have mine do it? Oh, the autism thing, ahh, another clueless wonderidiot. . .see dear, WE, those of us who were at the IEP in May know that this is not how you handle it- he is not some special case, he is an 8 year old who is playing around with you because he is smart enough to know that you are clueless and underestimating him. . . .which is when he has the most fun, when people are treating him as if ANY minute he will be the drooling head slapping 100 dollar spouting stereotype. . .RAINMANCHILD. . .

It is my job as Rainmom to clue you in. . .he is not stupid, he understands the word no, and you have to tell him that in order to get him to stop doing things. . .kind of like OTHER kids without autism. . .capice??

He did not get a picture, and continues to kiss his parents. . .in person:)

Apparently you really cannot fix stupid. . .

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

People should not be afraid of their political parties

Political parties should be afraid of their people. . .not QUITE the V quote, but it pretty much sums it up for me- why should I have ANY reservations about stating why my party let me down? And here is the really funny part- it is NOT about Hillary!

She has always been suspect as far as a role model/trend setter. . .her time as the wife of a disgraced lout of a man was just enough to remove any last shred of pity I had for her- for those of you too young to remember here is what I saw-

When asked questions QUITE similar to the whole "can a mom be VP" she shot back with a comment about whether or not she should have been home making cookies instead of practicing law

When the disclosures about her husband were coming fast and furious, it was not HIS fault. . .it was the Vast right wing conspiracy. . .

AND if the charges about Monica were true, she stated she would not be Tammy Wynette and stand by her man. . .which, of course, she did end up doing. . .

Why? Because she loved him? Maybe. But REMEMBER I am a cynic. . .SO I suspect that she stayed to shore up her chances at the Senate and the White House. . .because, well, YOU know a single mom LAWYER would not stand a chance at office. . . without the backing of someone male and well connected and well liked. . .

See, Cynic! If the shining light of the Dem PARTY doesn't believe that she can go it without her husband's help, no matter how disgraceful and impeached. . .what does that SAY about this party?

Do I see McCain's choice as an attempt to get my vote? Maybe, and it is a DAMN good start, because I connect with her in so many ways. . .right down to the attacks on my child that I have to deal with more often than not. . .the juggling, the questions, the lower expectations, or the statements about making sure I know what I am getting into. . .these questions have not beeen a part of the MALE experience at all, and well, until they are, how can ANYONE ask them of her?

Now some idiot is stating that in spite of her election to office, and the things she has done, and the fact that she is qualified for so many things- the REAL reason she was selected was. . .wait for it. . .because she did not have an abortion! A woman said this, in public and on purpose, no "is this thing on" for REAL!

http://www.politico.com/blogs/jonathanmartin/0908/SC_Dem_chair_Palin_primary_qualification_is_she_hasnt_had_an_abortion_.html?showall

Keep digging you clueless jerks!

Out of the woodwork

The disgusting attacks on this woman have really shown many for the shoddy humans they are. . .

http://littlegreenfootballs.com/article/31188_DUmmies_Hit_Bottom_Dig

Democratic Underground has since removed the post, but also insists that it was not offensive nor was it in any way attacking a 4 month old. . .I beg to differ.

I still cannot believe the lengths that Obama's supporters is going to to smear her and her family, all while declaring HIS family off limits. . .disgusting!

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

More about Hidden Pregnant, Missed Opportunity

About that comment about hiding a pregnancy-

When I was working as a floor nurse on 2nd shift, a spot on 1rst opened up. That shift was MOST vulnerable to the illnesses and unpredictability of motherhood- childcare and school vacations were just the tip of the Maternal iceberg. . .so that I had young children meant that I was probably not going to get the job, but when I found out I was having Muffin, I knew that would sink my chances- this is just after the FMLA took effect. . .so no one was really serious about it, for all of the information sessions held. . .

So, in house selection began, and as the 2nd shift nurse with the most time on the job who wanted to switch, I had a good chance, even with the kids at home. KIA was going to be in school, and Ziff was already in school full days, so the chances looked really good. . .until I found out Muffin was on his way.

I was able to hide this situation for a full 6 1/2 months. . .until someone saw me out of uniform and commented on my condition at work. . .which got my second interview for the day slot cancelled without official reason, and the position went to a woman with 1 child. . .who was a senior in high school. . . the new nurse had. . .never worked as a nurse before, having gone to school to avoid the empty nest that was on its way (her son was enlisting).

Two days later, I got a 'congrats a gram' from corporate about my 'impending doom', oops I mean 'arrival'- when I tried to go back after Muffin was born, I had a job full time waiting. . .3rd shift and 1 less day a week, and take it or leave it. . .

I left it, I had to, and that was that FMLA did not save me my job, it saved me A job, one that I could not fill. . .

The end of my nursing career.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Palin ponderings and politics of gender

Well, even the cynic Queen could not have seen the treatment of this woman, BY OTHER WOMEN, coming in this election, at this time. . .and if we, as a group, are going to continue to vote with our ovaries, we deserve what we get. . .

I guess the changeling's minions forgot that this was supposed to be a "clean" election and that "families were off limits". . .as a female parent, I am AMAZED at the crap running from the mouths of some liberal women, and struck by quite a few things;

When looking at Obama, and his ties with people like Wright, Ayers, Farrakhan, we are to believe that there IS no such thing as guilt by association from Camp Obama and the media. . . .UNLESS you are the other side. THEN GWB is the REASON for the badness, YOU are the same as HIM, and YOU are BAD! Sarah Palin is the MOST experienced executive officer of the bunch, and now SUDDENLY having no experience is a . . .wait for it. . .BAD thing!

Apparently, Obama is counting his 2008 summer tour as experience in world politics. . .you know, where he had an opening act, a rock/music act that gave a free concert. . .right before the speech. . .but I digress

So, it is ok to have no experience. . .if you are Obama
It is not ok to have experience in Washington. . . unless you are Biden

It is OK for a murderer to open the DNC convention *(can you say Chappaquiddick, Ted)?

But a unplanned teen pregnancy is SCANDAL!!

And the smears about how the baby was actually her grandkid, and why did she feel she had to hide the pregnancy? If you are really that clueless about the world of work and the pregnant body. . .I cannot help you. . .I understand PERFECTLY why she hid it, I did the same, and I was a NURSE. . .so shut UP about that!


Obama has not seen his kids in MONTHS for longer than a day. . .or has he? We never asked, BUT we are asked if Palin should be running, since, you know, she has kids, one of them special needs. . .and WOMEN are saying this!! On TV with no SHAME or AWARENESS of their own limited stunted thinking!!

Letterman asking Dr. Phil if we can trust Palin, since, well you know, she is not that great a mom. . .just LOOK at her daughter and her son, how can we trust THAT??? Gee, Dave, we should ask YOUR mom how you knocked up someone at age 50? Didn't you KNOW better??? What kind of mom did YOU have. . .oh, but you are a liberal. . .hmmmmm WTF, liberal dems?

She had a baby and came back 3 days later. . .if she had taken longer should would have been milking her leave, just like a WOMAN- and do not even get me started on the breastfeeding comments!

Democrats, I have looked the other way for a LOOOOOOONG time, and now, when there was a woman in play for the nomination, you chose the changeling with NO credible expereince or plan. Fine, but to attack a woman for doing exactly what you suppose to empower them to do. . .BECAUSE she is on the other side of the political fence, sorry, your gender politics seem to me a bit suspect. Especially with the Biden pick, if Hillary was so bad, why is that hack ok for VP, and are you really telling me that Hillary declined to even be vetted?

I think I really have to look at my party and PUMA!!!!!