Only the lonely

Wondering what will happen if I go to a movie alone tonight? Will people stare at me? Pity me? Will they even let me buy a single ticket, or is it now a law that you can only see a movie with someone, and that you have to buy the horrible popcorn? Only a BAMF movie like Clash of the Titans gives me cause to consider going alone. . .maybe its just me, but a movie is not a movie without someone to watch it with that is there just to watch the same movie with you:)

The look on my 16 year old son's face when I asked him to go with me. . .he felt bad for it, but clearly a movie is not to be watched in a theater with your MOM after a certain age- like when you can start to go to the bathroom on your own:)

But hey, maybe the theater has thought of this, and instead of valet parking, maybe they have concierge service where pathetic people with no life outside the umbrella can actually rent company. . .no silly readers not ESCORTS more like seat warmers. . .just the idea, illusion if you will, of some sense of belonging. . .when you just don't seem to fit anywhere in the real world. . .whine whine, or maybe I'll just throw another pity party. . .:)

I will probably not go- in fact I know I won't because in the end, the truth is, I WANT TO GO WITH SOMEONE SPECIAL. . .and I can't. When school was a lock I never thought about this, now that school is in doubt, well, pile on doubts fears and insecurities. . .game on!

Just wishing out loud and trying to figure things out. . .