Ever had one of those lives. . .
So much drama going on it is not to be believed, and well, quite honesty, the Rainmom is about to drown. I cannot ever remember being this pushed up against the wall emotionally, physically, and mentally, and I can also say I do not EVER remember being this close to a total and complete meltdown on all fronts.
You get to a point, when you have just had SO MUCH DRAMA for SO FUCKING LONG that you lose the ability to effectively deal with it, and your defenses and your soul weaken, and well, you worry about dragging new and special people down with you in the insanity that your life feels like it is becoming.
SO MUCH SO CLOSE and so many wonderful things to really bolster the umbrella, but the weakness is in the knowledge that someone who was unworthy has the inside scoop on all of your weaknesses and your insecurities, all of your Achilles spots, mostly your heart, and uses them in cruel and unusual ways until you wonder what the HELL you ever saw in them int he first place. . .
The kids are fine, well as fine as they can be, the mom is haning on fo rdear life, and waiting for some relief. . .
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