Thursday, May 22, 2008

My Fresh new hell

Ahhhhh, Tuomos! Heart you!


So, yeah, nothing really bad, but these last few weeks have been just annoying and stressful as hell-


Muffin is slacking in school and the calls and letters form school are so grinding- when I try to talk to him about it, all I get is that he hates school and that all he needs is for school to be over. . .yeah, right. So everyday the same thing and I am so hoping camp will help him get to a better place self esteem wise.


KIA is never home, I guess that is pretty normal for a senior, and we are having a HUGE party in August with all of his friends so we are all getting the grounds ready, live music from his friend's band. . .too intense!


The school front was going so well. . .UNTIL the PAship got a bit rough. . .understatement of the DECADE. It was a spreadsheet from hell project and I was just MISERABLE for all of these last 2 weeks. . .get all my course work done and get slammed with waaaaaay more than 10 hours a week at the end. . .sheesh, kind of took the wind out of my sails. . .had looked forward to basking in the glory of being done. . .and this project ground me down!


So, the summer season begins next week, first concert of the summer season, going to see my obsession in 1 week. . . . .yuuuuuummmmmmy!


Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Spring 4.0

Yep- Got 4.0 this semester. . .what a way to end my coursework phase. . .ahhhhhhh

But I do go on. . . .

So- the semester is pretty much OVER and wow I have my prelim outline all set. . .Jewish community of the city, non profits and history of the hospital. . .CANNOT wait TO GET INTO THE ARCHIVES. . .

Randdomocity rules so here you go, until I can update about my HELLISH last few weeks-

KIA- all set to graduate and all set at school next year, I am so freaking proud of my son!

Zach- BEST man at a wedding this past Sunday. . .he had an AMAZING time, wore a tux and made a toast that made people cry! I always knew he had it in him. . .having him look so happy and proud of himself is a wonderful thing

Cocoa- What a beasty! She has such the clothes attitude lately, but then, she goes all tomboy on me. . .so that will be an interesting thing to watch, and suffer through. She is doing so well at school- and has actually been reading at a 2nd grade level since February.

Precious- he is doing very well, now that he is in school all day. He is doing dance this summer, and it should be a great time for him, as dancing is one of his favorite things to do!

Butter- Milking a cold for all it is worth right now, so sad to see! He has been doing so well in school and I am really happy with how well he has adjusted- he is in the talent show doing a comedy act. . .wonder where he gets that from!

Muffin-Well, he is all set for camp- not a moment too soon- as he is hating school so much now. . .hope next year is better

We have a great weekend planned- beach if it is nice, home fun if it is not. . .indoor picnics are GREAT in May:)

Oh, and yes, an Obama rant is on its way. . .;)

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Mother's Day from an Uber Mother. . .

In honor of All Moms on Mother's Day - Words filled with wisdom By Erma Bombeck
When the good Lord was creating mothers, He was into His sixth day of "overtime" when the angel appeared and said, "You're doing a lot of fiddling around on this one."
And the Lord said, "Have you read the specs on this order? --
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic; Have 180 moveable parts . . . all replaceable; Run on black coffee and leftovers; Have a lap that disappears when she stands up; A kiss that can cure anything from a broken leg to a disappointed love affair; And six pairs of hands...
The angel shook her head slowly and said, "Six pairs of hands . . . no way."
"It's not the hands that are causing me problems," said the Lord. "It's the three pairs of eyes that mothers have to have."
"That's on the standard model?" asked the angel.
The Lord nodded.
"One pair that sees through closed doors when she asks, 'What are you kids doing in there?' when she already knows. Another here in the back of her head that sees what she shouldn't but what she has to know, and of course the ones here in front that can look at a child when he goofs up and say, 'I understand and I love you' without so much as uttering a word."
"Lord," said the angel, touching His sleeve gently, "Come to bed. Tomorrow . . ."
"I can't," said the Lord, "I'm so close to creating something so close to myself. Already I have one who heals herself when she is sick . . . can feed a family of six on one pound of hamburger . . . and can get a nine year-old to stand under a shower."
The angel circled the model of a mother very slowly. "It's too soft," she sighed.
"But tough!" said The Lord excitedly. "You cannot imagine what this mother can do or endure."
The angel asked, "Can it think?"
"Not only think, but it can reason and compromise," said The Creator.
Finally, the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek. "There's a leak," she pronounced. "I told You You were trying to put too much into this model."
"It's not a leak," said the Lord, "It's a tear."
"What's it for?" asked the angel.
"It's for joy, sadness, disappointment, pain, loneliness and pride," The Lord replied.
"You are a genius," said the angel.
The Lord looked somber.
"I didn't put it there," he said.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

State of the Race Union

So-

I would guess that by now, many weeks since the "Race Speech" that many of the supporters for the conversation suggested by Obama, this important dialogue between the races, have noticed that there are serious issues to be dealt with before we can even sit down at the table.

A no holds barred discussion will not be possible, here is why;

As a Zionist as well as a Jew, I am used to the contradictions that have presented themselves over the last few weeks, and, well, recent events with my 18 year old son make this conversation. . .interesting.

Some background- many of my family have intermarried across religious and racial lines. My aunts, well 3 of them, have Black husbands (not African American, my uncles self identify as Black men) and their children are interracial AND some are being raised Jewish. I married a Catholic upper crust young prince (really, they have the papers to prove their claim to. . .FRENCH royalty, so you know, it is not really royal, but it used to be) so it is all pretty intermixed.

So, KIA is 18, and approaching his first election, and well, the events of the last few weeks have shaken up the political scene, have they not?

Louis Farrakhan? NOI and its screeds against Jews and the Jewish religion? Gutter religion, and plotting against . . .what, everything. The statements that JEWISH doctors were deliberatly infecting Blacks with AIDS (Cokely. . Chicago, Wright affliated, google it) and for a quick reference, hit the ADL website's documentation on the low points in the speeches of Farrakhan over time. I am NOT getting any sort of reconciliation vibe off either him or Wright.

If you do follow up on the above; Ask yourself, as a Jew, do I really have the problem with conprehending the situation? Do I? Apparently, I do- I am not only vilified by these controversial people, I am expected to look past it, or worse, I am told that I JUST DO NOT GET IT. . .cause, well, you know, I am A kike, blood sucking Jew, Yid, or in the unforgettable Jesse Jackson moment- Hymie, with relatives in Hymietown, oh yeah, I was just there last summer. . . so how is that dialogue gonna happen again, with me having to keep my mouth shut, or worse, be told that I have no right to comment, because, again, I do not get it, and if I do complain, I am a racist Jew pig.

Is your head about to explode? Can you imagine telling your adult child to just ignore the people surrounding someone wanting to be president, who speak in vile ways about his religion and his culture. . .but yet, that is pretty much the response. Just ignore it, or worse yet, it is not really all that important, after all Wright is not running for president. . .pay no attention to the men behind the curtain.

Really Reverend? Obama?

Mocking impersonations of "European American" speech? No problem, all in good fun! Continuing to support the antisemitism of Louis Farrakhan. . .okey dokey. . .BUT if you, the general public or anyone questions the disconnect between such statements and the notion of equality and fairness. . .THEN you are a defacto racist. . .because to question the statements of Wright is to question the Black church. . .which is not for YOU PEOPLE to understand.

Yet, when it began to upset some of the people who took offense to being accused of supporting the plot to infect Blacks with AIDS, and the concerns that Obama himself voiced during his speech about alienating the lower class, sometimes equally disadvantaged whites with assumptions about their worldview, you know, how they are all racists if they complain about their situations and wonder if they should be included in the plans to help the less well off. . . but in stunning form of missing an opportunuity, Obama dismisses the chance, and instead dismisses them as bitter and clinging. . . "they" the unwashed masses, are not to be deterred from wanting their old time religion and their fire arms. . .Oh, Obama, what a missed chance to really start this conversation off, you missed the teachable moment. . .or did you? Are you interested in the conversation you claim to want, or was that just the politics of that day, that time?

Are you really ready to start this? You could not bring yourself to address the apparent disconnect between the man you felt was like a father and his ummm, er "politics" he holds, until he insinuated that you agreed with him. . .while sitting in the Black church we, those of us on the outside, do not understand.

Do NOT get me wrong, I was rooting for you-Obama, not because you are Black, but because you seemed like you could break through the bs. . .but you got caught up in it. . .and instead of rising above it, you started messing up. . .and playing along.

Hope is not color specific. . .my children have the audacity to hope. . .that will not be detered by the the color of their skin, they will be aided by the content of their character. . .I believe in the dream, do you?

Are you ready to take on white resentment at always being called racist when questioning certain controversies? Are you ready to handle being called oreo, or a sell out or any other the other insults, that can and do shut down so many of these attempts? Are you ready to stop thinking for us all, and meet this head on, as it plays out. . .can you handle the unscripted discussions and the complete lack of sound bites, in favor of honest and painful discussions? Are you ready to confront those that want the anger to last, so the hate does? Did you get any sense of love or respect for "European Americans" from Wright? I do not have to understand the Black church in order to understand dismissive and hateful stereotypes. . .

So, Obama, while you and Michelle may think that us unwashed masses are "tired" of this discussion. . .under the umbrella, we are STILL interested. . .

Saturday, May 3, 2008

"Detractors"

http://hosted.ap.org/dynamic/stories/A/ALASKA_GOVERNOR_BABY?SITE=WIMIL&SECTION=HOME&TEMPLATE=DEFAULT


Yeah, there will be those that will tell all mothers of special needs kids ESPECIALLY, that they belong in the home, not off earning money for their child's future!

Dammit-

When you get that dx, when you realize that the child you are having will probably never leave home, that you will die and not be sure that the child will be taken care of, when you UNDERSTAND that life costs, and death will rob your special needs child of their caregiver. . .what Rainmom would NOT want to work and get things paid for?

In a completely perverse way, gender roles are so unforgiving. . .you HAVE to take care of this child. . .but HOW? What is the best way to ensure the future of your special needs kid? Stay at home and take care of them physically, or get out there and work, save what you can and plan a future for them. . .either way, it is weird that special needs moms almost get a pass that typical moms do not. . .as in OH, yeah, you HAVE to stay home with THAT child. . .grrrrrr

All I know is that to not work means that I will leave that much less for him after I am gone, and to work now it to care for him in the future.

ROCK on Alaska Special Needs MOM!

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

KIA

My son is a man- I am so proud, he has decided on a college, arranged for his first semester, and kept me in the loop the whole time. I am so proud of him I could burst!!

Things under the umbrella are good- we have quite a bit to do between now and June, and wow, the time is just going like 60!

Muffin is looking forward to camp- he will be gone a month already, and our summer schedule is looking intense!

Butter- Baseball, swiming lessons, Spanish lessons, violin
Precious- Dance lessons, swimming, therapy, field trips
Cocoa- Gymnastics, swimming, Spanish, dance
Me- Indepenent study, prelims, present at ASA Teach summer session to PAY for Boston
KIA- Graduate, Summerfest with mom, Mayhemfest with mom, the Police with mom, and Matisyahu with his girl
Muffin- Camp, Police concert, Mayhenfest with mom, working out at the gym

I am tired just reading it!

Are you an American who is ___________ or

are you a ___________ American? Good luck with this question, Barak! My family and I can tell you a couple of things about how to answer the hysteria laden question bombs that are coming fast and furious. . .but you will not like it.

Can you start that conversation about race when everytime the critics speak, someone says "it's a Black thing, you won't/don't/can't/have no business understanding it.

Wright's statements "you don't get the Black church"- so AIDS as a government plot is somehow a Black church thing. . .check

Grandma Whitey- apparently she didn't get it either and she raised and loved Obama. . .but will be remembered for her contribution to his unshakeable belief. . .in the racism that is at the root of everyone white. . .or not? What does this mean? That she had stereotypes on the brain negated the love that she gave him? Why else put her in the spotlight during a race speech- ignore her love and support, and instead, highlight her moments of ignorance. Yep, that makes for the ULTIMATE in conversation starters across racial divides. . .stay with me. . .if Obama's GRANDMOTHER who loved and raised him cannot get any slack for ignorance, what hope do the rest of us have?

Blue collar White America- See above, when yer all don gitting yer guns loaded, and yer done with tha meetn on Sunday, surefire come on over, let the book larnin begin. . .set a spell and see what high faluttin edacation. . .

Bitter, clinging, and otherwise bumpkins who did not graduate from Uppercrust U. . . ready to let the healing begin?

Enough to make me get Social Conflict on you all. . .but wait

The conversation has shifted, and therein lies the question; which is it, America? Are you all Americans of different origins, or are you different origined Americans?

The answer will decide more than you know. . .

sigh- Back to Indiana Jones daydreams. . .