Dedicated to the Obama Nation

A Disturbed Moment of your VERY own!

From 10,000 Fists 2005


All my devotion betrayed
I am no longer afraid
I was too blinded to see
How much you've stolen from me
You wanna' know why I feel so horrified?
I let my innocence die
You wanna' know why I can't be pacified?
You made me bury something
I won't be sleeping tonight
I only wanted the blessing made
Now I've been labeled a renegade
It seems so clear now what I must do
You're no immortalI won't let them
Deify you
They view you as the new messiah
Deify you
Renew belief in some demented man
You wanna' know why it seems the passion has died?
We've all been living this lie
You wanna' know why my will has been fortified?
You've made me hunger again
Good luck sleeping tonight
I only wanted the blessing made
Now I've been labeled a renegade
It seems so clear now what I must do
You're no immortal
I won't let them
Deify you
They view you as the new messiah
Deify you
Renew belief in some demented man
All my devotion betrayed
I am no longer afraid
All my devotion betrayed
I am no longer afraid
I was too blinded to see
How much you've stolen from me
I was too blinded to see
All my devotion betrayed
I am no longer afraid
I was too blinded to see
How much you've stolen from me
Deify you
They view you as the new messiah
Deify youRenew belief in some demented man
Deify you
(All my devotion betrayed)
They view you as the new messiah
(I am no longer afraid)
Deify you
(I was too blinded to see)
Renew belief in some demented man
(How much you've stolen from me)

Wonder Days of Fall. . .

We are all psyched to go trick or treating tomorrow, and wow, what a beautiful few days it has been. Crisp clear air that stings the nose a bit, but puts a spring in the step of Casey and I as we go for our walks. . .

The freeze ahead is working SOOOOOO great! I hope to perfect it to the point that all the kids can pop in a meal and have it ready to go! With Baking/Making Sunday a part of the routine, we are doing so well, and even have Thanksgiving menu all set and supplies bought!

So, we will be posting Halloween pics after the fact, as we will have to hurry home for Shabbos candle lighting, so catch up with you then. . .Shalom!

Endorsement anticlimaxical

Green Bay rally

Yes, I endorse McCain/Palin for office in this election.

In so many ways this was/is not an easy decision for me, since I was raised from the knee to be a blue collar Democrat, no matter what my job looks like now. I have heard over and over again that people like me continue to vote against their "economic interests" in elections, and I never understood that until now.

It may be in my best interests fiscally to vote Obama, something I am SO doubting, but there are so many things more important to me than money, and my morals, beliefs, and standards represent what makes me who I am, not my bank account. Obama loses my vote because our values and democratic identities are direct opposites. I do not want to throw America out with the bathwater, he sees a radical and yes it is a Socialist, change in our economic system, which I do not wish, and which I will not vote for, my family came here to ESCAPE that system under Stalin, when he starved out farmers in the Ukraine, where my family lived, in order to impose collective farming practices, I cannot and will not vote to give the government more power over me by means of the means of production.

I was raised to believe in G-d, working hard, and in treating people as I would want to be treated, I see respect for none of those values from Camp Obama, quite the opposite, "get mine from the 'rich' " is more like it and I cannot think of a more compelling reason to refuse to vote for him, but I have others. I simply cannot vote for him because he is from the "party" and I really cannot fathom union support for this guy, when he is out front to anyone who will listen about how he will make big business pay. . .and pay. . .so then, if big business is paying and paying, what then will they use to pay more in wages and benefits to their workers? What will there be left for union members to benefit from with this plan? My union has already singled me out for asking the questions. . .and being told to just "vote the party" is not enough. How much could the union have helped us workers if they had stopped sending out all the McCain is Satan hate mail to my house every day for the past 3 months? Postage and printing costs alone must have been staggering, and yet. . .do not ask questions, just vote like we tell you to. . .nope, not gonna work with me.

Quite honestly, I am surprised and really disappointed in many of my party, those who refuse to look beyond these "party lines" and examine the choices from fresh perspective. I cannot tell you how many times people have said to me "I could not vote republican, even if it was Jesus" WOW, blind faith indeed. . .go ahead, climb on to the bunk bed in your purple shoes after eating the 'magic pudding' and wait for the Hale/Bopp to come for you. . .I mean the Obamanation. . .

In the past few days, troubling stories that I have been following for almost a year have come to full light, I believe that Obama is a horrible choice for PROUD Zionist Jew like me. . .and while my fellow Jews may want to discount the Khalidi dinner with Obama and Ayers and such, I refuse to. . .and sadly acknowledge the basic truth of the saying "there are none so blind as those who refuse to see" and it will be cold comfort if Obama does win, and all is revealed to be as I fear- I believe he is lying about what we do know, and when we finally get answers about what we do not know i.e. medical records, thesis,ACORN, Ayers, LAT tape, NOI, PLO, Hamas, et. al. if it is as I suspected, being right will be of no comfort.

I am glad I broke through the veil of party stupor and looked at McCain. I will not be ashamed of voting for him, because I feel he will do justice to the Office, and make me proud. I support his years of service, respect his service in the Armed Forces, and as a old school central Democrat, I am proud to be for McCain.

As a woman with a special needs child, Sarah Palin has inspired me, as much as MSM has horrified me. If I wanted to run for office someday, I may now have the courage to face the horrific treatment that could be coming my way, using her class and grace in the face of the cunt tees hurled all over the place. . .and all the other gendered, sexist, mean spirited, and just plain out of line actions by the press heaped on her. I am proud to cast my vote for her, and win or lose, I will never regret my vote, like I do for Clinton. . .

So, bit surprise, I am 4 McCain/Palin!

To vote for Obama means I am supporting people who attack, without mercy or facts, those who disagree with them, calling them cunts, whores, and who crow at the prospect of "turning the tables". . .how is this unity again? Tolerance? I am having none of that whole "Obama is not to blame for his followers" crap. . .is he not the REASON for the attacks? His "people" are the ones smearing and attacking in his name. . .and the silence from the man who wants to be leader of this country is very telling.

After watching the hate and lies spew from supposed "feminists" toward Palin, because she was not the "right" kind of woman, I realized, I am also not the right kind of woman, because I did not chose the "right" option and abort my baby at 15, I had him. To think that I would be attacked for that decision. . .by other women who apparently make different choices and feel they and they alone are correct is mind boggling.

I am glad I am seeing things more clearly now about those around me. I will make sure to remember the way they spread lies and innuendo, attacks and tee shirts in order to attack a person they disagreed with. . .no matter how similar she was in personality and ambition and life experience. I will look carefully at THEIR research, their work, and check it twice, and do my best to keep them honest. . .something that should not be necessary, but sadly, in light of their conduct during this election, is crucial.

L'Chaim and Shalom, may be best ticket win.

Pumpkins Redux

Butter's pumpkin

Precious's pumpkin

Muffin and his consult pumpkin

Casey waiting for some more pumpkin!

Pumpkins 2.0

Cocoa's Finished Product

Three pumpkins glowing

Butter- Determined to carve the best he can

Cocoa and her complete happiness with digging out that gooey crap!

Butter finishing up. . .and looking very serious!

We baked up a storm today! Snuggled with hot chocolate and fresh cookies, and just had the most mellow weekend. . .sigh, what a great day!

Pumpkins Carved Part one

This was made possible by

Cocoa getting it done

After picking it out

Precious ponders his design

After Cocoa helps him get his pumpkin. . .

As a cold blanket of brisk October air settles on us, we stayed in today and snuggled and hung out. . .and got our pumpkins carved into jack o lanterns. . .

Shabbat Shalom

Ye'varech'echa Adonoy ve'yish'merecha.

Ya'ir Adonoy panav eilecha viy-chuneka.

Yisa Adonoy panav eilecha, ve'yasim lecha shalom.

Trials Toils and Tears. . .

Midterm, and I weep for the stress of it all. Parent teacher sit downs, the mountain of work from the High Holidays to do, the strain of trying to parent the kids and keep it all together. . .

The dog has to get shots, the kids need hair cuts, and the refrig is empty as heck. . .what to make for supper. . .all of these concerns are driving me crazy.

But, in all of this, there are islands of tranquility, and of peace and comfort. The snuggle time at story time, the mugs of hot cocoa, the baking of cookies and breads for the week's lunches, and the beginning of the "week of meals in the freezer" experiment. . .oh, did I forget to mention that?

I found a book that had a section about freeze ahead meals. . .and we are going to try it and see what happens. . .that starts Sunday. . .

But, hugs and kisses and MORE hugs and the peace that comes from putting all work away and just being with your kids as a family. . .THESE are the things that I am fixed on. . .and it has helped a lot!

From the dark, one small voice

A port in a storm, and a light in the storm, and when all else fails, when anxiety is full blown, there is nothing so calming and centering than the warm and safe feeling you can give to your children.

The hugs and kisses, the calm voice and the constant reassurance that no matter what, they will be loved and cared for, and that I will never let them get carried off by any of life's storms.

When I am feeling at my weakest, and dreading the future, I am reminded over and over again that my children need better than that, and to let the waves of life crash, but never ever let them carry you off, and that will always get me through. . no matter what. . .

Hold tight to your happy thoughts, and those you love, they are more precious than anything. . .

A clear and present case against Obama- and a pause

http://hotair.com/archives/2008/10/21/the-comprehensive-argument-against-barack-obama/


This post will be, essentially the final post on the election unless something really get me going again.

In this link, finally, a group of people have put it all in one place, and have laid bare the premise that this particular person is the best choice.

He did not follow through on his promise about funding his race. . .John McCain did. That one act of good faith was enough to get me thinking, and the rabid full on attack on Sarah Palin sealed the deal. . .I do not want to vote for a person that the c*nt shirts support. . .

So, when you are complaining about students who cheat on their papers, who e mail you with 3 weeks of class left to ask what they can do for a passing grade, after a 2 month vacay. . .AND when they have the gall to attack you if you say "nothing, you are getting an F." Remember you voted for the person who hoped to bring in a new world order where results are not measured anymore. Only what is lacking will matter, if you have it, get ready to have the government take to give to someone "behind you" you know, cause they know better than you.

If you are sick of having to meet with businesses over and over again to get your union contracts in order, and hate to hear "we just do not have it" wait, and you will not have it either. . .big business getting hit with taxes includes the one you work for. . .and that money will be given to people "behind you."

Of course that might put you behind yourself and a question forms who, then, will be giving to you? Who will be left? Details details, and oh, yeah. . .

If you snicker at the people who think the world owes them, that they deserve maximum benefits for minimal input, and if you are waiting to take money that you have earned and allow the government to spend it for you. . .

Your new World order may be coming. . .elected with an all out appeal to the very things you may find intolerable in your life. No to church and state, yes to state run everything, no to red tape, yes to big huge government bureaucracy. . .and if you do not value to right to determine what you can afford to give, welllllllll. . . it's all good. . .bah!

When you come right down to it, what is really going on is that Obama is saying, in a sense, I do not have any real claim to leadership, I just feel you owe it to me to allow me to make history, and be president. My past, my "friends and advisers" and my questionable tactics are not important, I have submitted nothing by way of papers, or records. . .nevermind that. . . all that matters is getting what I want- and you must give it to me, end of discussion. If you question me, my past, my judgement, you are at best a racist, at worst, well, see the tee. . .

I am just glad I did venture over to look at McCain, rather than just dismiss him and vote the party. . .I could not imagine that I would have stayed with Obama to this point, but who knows. . .

End transmission

For the sin of being on the wrong side of "real" women

Another unity post from the Obama supporters. To go with the e mail virals that are still out there. . .and Obama feels picked on how? Because the other side is critical of words that came out of his and Biden's mouths?

How dare you question what Biden meant by an "international crisis" for Obama? If your VP voices these things, why are you attacking the other side when they say THE EXACT SAME THING. . .but do not threaten an attack, shit even the GOP hasn't said that. . .but Biden did. . and he would know, right?

Fucking A, it is like Bizzaro World. . .hell of a way to run a country. . .attack and literally demonize those who say what your own VP says. . .blood and all. . .

Niiiiiiice.

Stay Classy Party of change, those of us who support the c**t will be watching you all pretty closely. . .bloody fangs at the ready. . .

A Disturbed Monday

Decadance lyrics
Say, yes they know that you fought yourself another time
Don't they know that you're full of pain already?
Yes they know that you've hurt yourself another time
Decadence isn't easy, is it?
Yes they know that you've hurt yourself another time
Don't they know that you're full of pain already?
Yes they know that you've hurt yourself another time
Decadence isn't easy, is it?
Then you slowly recall all your mind
Why, your soul's gone cold, and all hope has run dry
Dead inside
Never enough to forget that you're one of the lonely
Slowly recall all your mind
Say, yes they know that you've hurt yourself another time
Don't they know that you're full of pain already?
Yes they know that you've hurt yourself another time
Decadence isn't easy, is it?
Yes they know that you've hurt yourself another time
Don't they know that you're full of pain already?
Yes they know that you've hurt yourself another time
Decadence isn't easy...Then you slowly recall all your mind
Why, your soul's gone cold, and all hope has run dry
Dead inside
Never enough to forget that you're one of the lonely
Slowly recall all your mind
If I scare you now
Don't run from me
I've been hiding my pain, you see
Said if I scare you now
Don't run from me
I've been hiding my pain, you see
Slowly recall all your mind
Why, your soul's gone cold, and all hope has run dry
Dead inside
Never enough to forget that you're one of the lonely
Slowly recall all your mind
Slowly recall all your mind
Say, yes they know that you've hurt yourself another time
Don't they know that you're full of pain already?
Yes they know that you've hurt yourself another time
Decadence isn't easy, is it?

Off 10,000 Fists 2006

Happy Day Monday!!!

Are you SURE you want to vote for him?????
Being a princess is hard on the feet!
Unhand my throwing/skipping stones, cry havoc!!!!!
Maine on my mind. . .I miss you East Coast!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Heart YA!



Sigh- midterms await, and I have a reading list to do. . .

THE CLIFFS OF INSANITY

Yeah, I said it. . .insanity, and here is why.

My part time job is a at a small business here in town, I can do much of it at home, but well, not all of it, and so, today was one of those in house days. . .

Now, of course it is no secret to those who know about this blog who I am strongly opposed to in this election, but as far as work goes, I have pretty much maintained radio silence on my feelings about the race.

A woman in the place that has voiced strong support for Obama came in today and we were talking about things when another woman came up and asked for a "few bucks" to buy some coffee. . .the woman said she did not have a few bucks. I did so I gave it to her.

Once the woman left, she said "you are so stupid to give her money, she has child support, and she gets SSI for her kid with health problems. She's not getting anymore of MY money."

Whoa, wait a minute. . .does she even hear what she is saying? Socialism is, among other things, an economic system that distributes money via the government. The "people" in a socialist system do not earn personal funds, they are all expected to draw their funds 'according to their need" and contribute according to their ability". . .

So, my single, non parent coworker who is not willing to part with any "more" of her money will be quite surprised to find that she will be, for the most part, paying into the new spread the wealth world order, and getting out only what the entity in charge thinks she needs. . .there will be no debate the government will be there to help you . . .spending what ever you contribute and giving you according to need.

There is, of course, nothing wrong with socialism, as long as voters are making the choices they make with the correct information, and "spreading the wealth around" via the government is exactly that. . .so why not just say so. . .

Oh, because it is "scare tactics" ahhhhh, yes, the truth is scary. . .got it!

Oh the shoals of my sanity

Hard to believe that the personal has replaced the political as driving me straight off the rails and onto the rocks, but there it is. . .

In a stunning reversal of fortune, it now seems almost certain that I will have the most incredible workload now, as they are letting one of us go and it will be up to the other to "work for two" in preparation for, are you ready, "the Obama presidency" and he laid off the girl most likely to have supported him. . .irony huh?

That's right, the job I have now is teetering at that magic number. . .and in light of the fact the the Legislature is Dem controlled as well. . .my boss feels that with the hits in fuel prices this summer, and supplies and everything. . .he has to let someone go, and since I have been here longer, the OTHER college student will be losing her well paying part time job, and have no additional fin aid to help her. . .and she has had NO LUCK WHATSOEVER in finding another job. . .one place told her that if she did not have a job already, she was in all likelihood, shit out of luck.

So, now I have to do twice the work for the same pay, and hope I can get everything else taken care of. . .but life has a way of making that hard

Precious acting up in school- I go for a sneak visit next week because I am suspecting something is up, and since I have not been there in awhile. . .well, they will be surprised!

Butter is just doing SO freaking well, and I am so proud of his bad self. . .he has made to student council rep for his class and is also on safety patrol. . .which is fun to watch. He is doing so well in algebra. . .in 5th grade. . .having taken geometry last year. . .sheesh. . .%^$ math, he is SO much better at it than me, thought my word problem skills we a source of pride and renown in college. . .I ruled!

Muffin is WORKING as a pinsetter in a club. . .look it up, he is sooooo retro! He is doing ok in school so far, math continues to be a problem. . .but he is doing ok. . .

KIA is about to be kicked out of the house for severe laziness. . .just kidding, but I can see now why he once supported The One. . .until he got his job and saw how much he lost out of each paycheck. . .welcome to the real world!

Cocoa had her last soccer game of the season and she did GREAT. . .considering last week at this time she was having to take her steroids. . .for her asthma. . .but now, she did well, and started Daisy Scouts as well, she looks cute in the smock. . .

Yeah, so once I give up sleeping I will have a schedule I can deal with. . .and of course if Obama is elected, I can get money from all of you to take care of my kids for me. . .right? If you want to start giving early, I can tell you my address. . .:)

Off to face the music. . .

Ah, the tolerent dulcet Obama supporters. . .

Oh so eager to reach across trhe aisle, with these garments just filled with respectful political disagreement. . .

I know, some of you will be more offended by the landfill bound water bottle. . .me, I am old school, and this is absolutely offensive. . .what if I got a shirt that said Barak Obama is a cunt? Or Michelle?

You people are mean, and mean people suck. . .

But, hey you stay classy. . .

From castration to prediction

http://www.nypost.com/seven/10142008/postopinion/opedcolumnists/the_o_jesse_knows_133450.htm

Jesse Jackson, last heard saying he wanted to cut Obama's "nuts" off has now taken to reclining in France and expound on what life will be like in the Obamanation. . .and hey, sounds like Israel and anyone who supports her are in for "change they cannot comprehend" in that Zionists will be shown the door. . .hmmmm

I have often wondered how Jews can, as a people, continue to breathe under the sand they bury their heads in about the Democratic party and the allowances and excuses they make for their brethern in the party. . .

Here in A shtetl ca- Left liberal political thought has demonized Israel in the face of terro bombings, lynchings of Jews, the machine gun deaths of children and their pregnant mother (they were "settlers") and all while swallowing wholesale the idea of "land for pieces. . .I mean peace.

Dennis Roth wrote about the years he worked on peace in the region, under Clinton, and there has been little if any evidence to support the existience of anyone on the Palestinian side that wants peace more than they want genocide for Jews and the destruction of Israel wholesale. . .and up to this point American presidents have been divided on the peace process, but not on whether or not Israel should exist. . .until now.

Adding up why an American Jew should NOT vote for Obama is not hard;

The less than 6 degrees of seperatation between Obama and those who call for Israel's destruction;

1. Obama ->Last month his Advisors meet with Hamas and Hiz b'Alla -> 2. Advisor alsos linked to CAIR ->3. linked to the Holy Land Foundation -> 4. Funded Hamas and Hiz b' Alla-> 5. These group commit acts aimed at genocide and are antisemitic to their core to destroy the Jewish state. . .

Look at that. . .1 degree left over. . .and Wright's link to NOI and Farrakhan and Hamas. . .not even needed!

There are NONE so blind as those who refuse to see. . .and I for one would rather enter into the next 4 years with my eyes open and breathing sand free air than go back to the Democratic party. . .


See, it is just so hard to imagine that this could be as momentous as 1933, similiar economic worries and the same old hate and even more politically correct to hate Jews. . .now Jews are included in the hate. . .and yet we, as a community, refuse to heed the words and give them zero credibility. . .and will for the most part STILL believe that all is well, on our way to pariahhood and who knows. . .

We are living in the American shtetl, our heads in the sand, and if we dared to ask "what if these people calling for our deaths are serious" what would we do? Many do not even care, and those of us who do are surrounded by those who have accepted the utter correctness of Jew, oh I mean Israel hating. . .those damn Zionists. . .fuck them and their shitty country (quote from a French diplomat)

Imagine if these statements about Jews were being made about ANY other group. . .would we call these statements hate speech. . .Yep. Would we vote them into office? Hell no. . .unless they speak of another Holocaust, or deny the most recent one. . or threaten to nuke Israel. . .they THEN we. collectivly as Jews are urged to "ignore them" or worse yet, SHOW RESTRAINT!

GOTTENYU!

Spread the wealth. . .

So, Obama finally got around to saying it. . .

http://elections.foxnews.com/2008/10/13/obama-plumber-plan-spread-wealth/comments/

In response to a plumber asking if he was going to get taxed even more "punish" him for his success. . . Obama said he was going to tax to give to the "people behind you" because, you know, that is fair, if the poor people are doing well, everyone will be. . .

WHICH would be fine if that is how he is presenting himself. . .as the Socialist he is, Marx's Robin Hood economic policy. . .take from the rich and give to the poor- but WAIT. . .has that been tried before?

Welfare, was that a success? Tax people and give to others, hmmm, sounds familiar. . but this would be a lot different . . . the tax payers would be bank rolling this new world order. . .does Hollywood know? Hold that Brie and Dom. . .and we cannot afford that new. . .house. . .darn, only 15 houses on 4 continents. . .

Do I even need to bring up the wealth vs. income differential? As in how much you make doesn't show your wealth, and if you make a lot, and owe a lot, you are poor?

I am no math person BUT Obama is now all over the place saying that "95% of American families will get a tax cut" BUT now he is saying that he will spread the wealth around. . .where is that going to come from? 5% of Americans minus the 1/3 or so that do not pay taxes?

$#&^ new math, it just doesn't add up. . .

Hmmmmmm, let's go to the video;

Wealth
by luvnews

Ahhhhh, JUST what we needed!

Beautiful Fall day
Beautiful children
A body of water
A picnic lunch
And PUMPKINS!!


We have just had the MOST amazing family weekend and not a moment too soon. . .stress levels have grown quite rapidly and show little signs of dropping. . .if I had ANY sort of fiscal portfolio. . .that would be the icing on the stress cake. . .

But not today- today was giggling, pumpkin hunting, running, playing, throw the clock away and that whole "time" concept. . .and just. . .be.

Of course the trip had to end, with many wonderful fall food items. . .apples and cherries for pies and sauces, plus the pumpkins. . .which will show up here soon in carved glory. . .

But as they sleep tonight, and as we rest from today, we are at peace and we have reconnected on the most important level, our family's heartbeat!

Shava Tov!

I totally NEED Shalom !!!!!!!

I love the month of October- It always makes me feel so alive, even though the trees are about to sleep. . .

The leaves, walking Casey on a windy crisp fall morning or evening, and just feeling so energized and refreshed. . .

I love the Fall season!

Shabbat Shalom and have a nice weekend. . .Obama and McCain supporter alike. . .heck, Obama even. . .:) Let the joy of the fall season be universal!

Ummmm, WTF???

http://deepbackground.msnbc.msn.com/archive/2008/10/09/1525564.aspx

Are you FUCKING kidding me????

Gottenyu, my fellow Jews, why are you supporting this guy? He is NOT the party, the party has not been for ISRAEL OR JEWS for that matter, for a very long time. . .are you serious about issues like terrorism? Do you give a shit about Israel? Or Israeli Jews?

This is the most recent in a serious of "mistakes" that most if not all his supporters are willing to ignore or downplay, even the Jewish ones. . .

Shanda fir goyim. . .mit goyim!!

25 more days. . . .till ??????

Bias, What bias?

http://gretawire.foxnews.com/2008/10/05/email-sort-of-nows-shelly-mandel-by-posting-here/#comment-2328655


Yeah, I have to go to a blog to find this. . .a NOW rep endorses Palin and calls her a true feminist (not a true democrat, you see) and no one, NO one reports it. . .why is this not news?


Hmmm, maybe because the NOW organization, in the words of the Late great George Carlin is really only concerned with "their own pocketbooks and their reproductive rights" so if THEY can handle the tax increases to pay for the Obamavision and if they can see Palin not as a woman but as the enemy. . .so much the better. . .NOT

While I am sure this was just an "oversight" it still seems kind of strange that someone from a far left org endorsing the Republican candidate would merit at least a mention. . .oh, no wait. . .nevermind, we have the "rednecks for Obama" crowd to report. . .MUCH more interesting and newsworthy!

My bad.

Truth be told I will be glad to get this over with- I am tired of people saying they "hate" McCain because he is GWB, when liberal people like Feingold sing his praises, and work with him. That just because he went to war as an American soldier doesn't mean he really understands how to lead. . .and well, military service is SO 20th century. . .

I am tired of people saying they cannot stand Palin because of the "facts" - and find out their "hate" is based on one of several hundred lies forwarded by so called "scholars" and by the time the rebuttals came out, these lies were viral. No matter how many times the librarian stated that not only did Palin NOT fire her, but she actually supported her. . .people still call her a book burner. The rape kit lies, the special needs education funding lies. . .the fact that even her hacked e mail showed NOTHING . . .still they "hate her"- sigh.

I should be fair- I despise Obama for the following reasons, maybe they are not "the right" reasons but at the VERY least, they are the reasons I have actually spent time researching;

He is not a friend of Israel- his ties to Louis Farrakhan and Hamas through his "spiritual home" have not been addressed to my satisfaction. I believe he has very close associations with antisemites, ones who give OTHER antisemities awards and sing his praises. . .take a bow, Wright and Farrakhan.

He has yet to provide details on his grand plan to take the U.S. back to a better time. . .and with Ayers in his camp, what "time" is he planning to go back to? 1960s? That was a HORRIBLE time for many people, my dad included. . .and my brother is now one of those "pigs" that would have been "offed" by Ayers at that time. . ."kill your parents" and "Charles Manson killed those people and then had food, and stuck one of the dead bodies with a fork" (these are quotes from Ayers and his wife respectively) My G-d!!! Source:

http://rightwingnews.com/mt331/2008/10/barack_obama_in_quotes_version_2.php

Yeah, I know, "right wing", but as a democrat I was amazed at how little factual information I could find on Left sites- they were usually posting about fake e bay ads for Down Syndrome babies and "evidence" that Palin was actually Trig's Nana. . .I was driven to other sources. . .

Because if any Independent or Republican candidate had any of these issues in their past, there would be no discussion of whether or not he "knew" it would be assumed that he or she did. . .and game over.

That support for him as president has become some sort of litmus test for racial tolerance, and if you are white, and against him, you are, of COURSE, a racist! Granted this is not his fault, but because he will not face the issue. . .he will not lead. . .even people who are already supporting him warning bells

I cannot wait for November 5th

Yom Kippur

Kol Nidre veesore vacharome

V'konome v'chinuye v'kinuse

Ushvu Ushvu os dindarno mi

Yom Kippurim se ad Yom Kippurim

Obama is no longer 8 years old

"Recent" discussions about Obama and his ties with Weather Underground member Ayers show the delicate but oh so powerful skill of political spinning and slight of hand. . .by team Obama.

Notice; the issue is NOT did Obama plant bombs with Ayers. . .it is What are his adult life ties with Ayers and more importantly for many people in my dad's generation, what are the influences and commonalities in their approach to U.S. government?

Is it a crime to hate America? Nope. Is it a crime to step on the flag and declare in print on 9-11-01 that you wish you could have done more by way of bombing. . .as planes were flying into buildings on the East Coast? Nope. Poor timing and poor judgement. . .the picture of Ayers posted here was taken in Chicago for an article where Ayers wishes he would have done more bombings and protesting. My dad was in Viet Nam at the time of his "activism" so were he alive today? He would be right here with me, I believe that in my heart.

But, hey, it is not even a crime to make the issue one of "he had nothing to do with this radical 60s politics guy" when the issue is SUPPOSED to be "what are you doing with this same unapologetic 60s radical in 2005 and how many times are you going to have to "clarify" relationships with people who represent fanatical beliefs AGAINST the United States?"

Look, go ahead Obama, hate America all you want. . .you, Ayers, Wright, Pfleger, and Bernadine, go right ahead. If THAT it the change you are selling, I am not buying. I have issues with a lot of things in this country- but I would just as soon suffer at the hands of your fanatic followers rather than support you if THIS is the kind of company you keep, and if THESE are the kind of positions you hold. Even if you cannot appreciate the fact that only in America can you act as you do, speak as you do, and hate as you do. . .because of the freedoms that are here. . .I can. My dad did. . .so do a lot of us, and what you mistake as weakness and softness is actually a sense of class and the realization that we, those of us not in Camp Obama, understand that our right to dissent is just as important to us, as your rights to support. . .and that is because we live in America. One thing that divides us though is the subjective interpretation of what it means to be "American" I will close this with something I heard A LOT during Grad school. . ."Dissent is not treason" Obama supporters would do well to remember that, Dissent is also not racism, and my right to dissent is just as strong as yours is to support.

My dad taught me that. Keep spinning Camp Obama. I will be watching your messiah very carefully tonight.

"Our intelligence is imperfect, surely, and newly arisen; the ease with which it can be sweet-talked, overwhelmed, or subverted by other hardwired propensities -- sometimes themselves disguised as the cool light of reason -- is worrisome."Carl Sagan and Ann Druyan, 1992

At LAST someone put it in print!

http://pajamasmedia.com/blog/ask-dr-helen-how-do-you-deal-with-a-palin-hater/2/


This OPINION, not truth, there is a difference you know, piece is a great example of what my life has been like since making my political affilation turmoil public.

The fact that so many WOMEN are frothing at the mouth and consider the inclusion of Hillary as "progress" and the inclusion of Palin as "pandering" shows the divide in the female population is our own greatest enemy.

As long as women on both sides continue to insist on regulating and shaping the vision of gender equality to their own liking AND demonizing women who do not agree with that vision, as a whole, nothing will ever change. It is sad, because so many of these insane attacks on Palin are coming from people who are very much like her in matters of work and ambition. They are making the tradeoffs in work and parenting, outsourcing and struggling to make partner, tenure, CEO, and at the core of their struggle? The CONTINUED gender role sets of women. . .no matter what your politics.

Indeed, both sides have their fanatics. . .not trying to imply that Liberal women are the only ones in play here. . .but they are the ones I identified with, the ones who I thought I could count on, because I had supported many of their causes for so long, even if I did not agree with all of their opinions, I agreed on the effects of gender on the issue and offered support.

This election has shattered friendships that have last for years, I have people flaming my e mail account, and these are people I have know for almost 10 years, some longer. . .all because why? I chose to leave politics behind and concentrate on our common gender issues?

Yeah, shame on me. I will be able to sleep at night, no matter how the election turns out. . .I wonder if some of the people who are clogging my inbox with flat out lies will be able to say the same.

Oh, and on the economy??? Get ready; Obama's party is being called out as the shadow figures behind the mess. . . .by a liberal European paper writer! Remember opinion, but this is one piece that uses facts to support the opinion. . .but feel free to fact check!

http://www.independent.co.uk/opinion/commentators/dominic-lawson/dominic-lawson-democrat-fingerprints-are-all-over-the-financial-crisis-949653.html


"Ignorance is an enemy, even to its owner.
Knowledge is a friend, even to its hater.
Ignorance hates knowledge because it is too pure.
Knowledge fears ignorance because it is too sure."

Sri Chinmoy

A Disturbed Moment

Rise
Throw away
The charade of your life
Let the flame of my heart
Burn away
Your complacence tonight
I command you to rise
Wash away
The decay of your life
Feel the light of your eyes
Find the way
Through the darkness tonight
Fearing no one
Do you really think I covet like you do
Come, take me away
Remove the fear from my eyes
Feel the flame of my heart
Burning away
All conversation tonight
Hearing no one
Am I precious to you now
Now rise
Turn away
From the shame of your life
Feel the light from my eyes
Offering Consolation tonight
Fearing no one
Do you really think I covet like you do
Come, take me away
Remove the fear from my eyes
Feel the flame of my heart
Burning awayAll conversation tonight
Hearing no one
Now, I cannot stop this
Pure emotion
Falling from my eyes
You are vindicating
Liberating
Saviors of my soul

Why I am taken with McCain/Palin. . .really

Well, first, I guess because I have been saying since 2007 that it would be interesting to see who the Democrats would "hate" once Bush could no longer run. . .I see they have an answer for me. . .the Viet Nam vet and the hockey mom with the Down Syndrome kid. . .oh and the teen mom.

But really, the treatment of Palin's status as mom of a special needs kid and the dismissal of McCain's war record continues the pattern I have seen in my once beloved party for awhile.

Do not get me wrong, I was not any fan of the GOP choices. . .but the reasons as to why I should not be anything BUT a supporter of the Obama was what really drove me away. It was when I started to see the full on attacks on Palin's family, the Kos and the Huff post people and their horrible mass emails forwarded to go viral. . .whether they were true or not.

But this is really the reason- the Special needs issue and the fact that I really believe that as long as having anything wrong with your family means you will never be truly accepted into many social circles then all we do now is a joke. As long as we see families with special needs kids as set apart and unable to participate in many areas because of their kids. . .they will not be accepted into the social arena as a whole. My son rarely has play dates, has only been invited to 1 birthday party, and he is 8 years old. Other kids are just not thinking of including Precious. . .because, you know, the autism.

I have come to realize in the past few weeks, that I have actually ENJOYED shattering the low expectations set for me, I have LOVED the fact that the people at my adjunct job consider me a bored housewife. . .until I showed them my entry in the ASA program. . .along with my entry for a history journal about women's hospitals. . .bored housewife my ASS!!!

But those same feelings do not filter down to my son. He has to work very hard to get through a day. . .and the expectations are also very low for him. . .so much so, that they were actually praising him for "finding his name" which he has been doing since he was 4 years old. . .I mean come ON, push him a bit harder. . .please. But as long as we are assuming that tolerance is bliss. . .he will be tolerated in his autistic state. . .as all kids should be, just do not INCLUDE him in anything.

I like that Palin has accepted Trig as just part of her family. . .I tire of the "coping" story lines and the 'triumph over all odds" while at the same time measuring my success as a parent by how close I get to the Hollywood Rudy ending. . .cause if I am a GOOD Rainmom, my son will overcome all odds and. . .well, you know the rest, right?

I would love to add to the narrative about special needs families. . .and I would love to have a mom who is dealing with such a status to be front and center in a highly visible job, and wonder at the ramifications of it all. . .

So, the debates, I watched, and I was glad I did. . .I will watch tomorrow!

Almost done

No matter how the election goes- a few things I am sure of;

Not voting for Obama because you disagree with him is NOT racist

Electing a Black man to office will not end racism

White guilt over assumed privlige is not reason enough to suspend disbelief- you either want to keep what you earn, or you don't,

I will be waiting to see what happens. . .and hope for the best. I find it really interesting that Biden stated that he and Obama do NOT support a change in the Constitution for gay marriage- no one made a sound on that one. . .


He stated Obama never said what he did about "no preconditions" with Iran and Syria. . .which was wrong. . .

BUT- again, if it is not reported, did it happen? I wonder how many people really understand what income redistribution means. . .and the fact that it is real people's income that will be redistributed, not the politicians. I am very VERY leery of the "95% of people will see their taxes go down" with NOTHING to back that claim but the pat on the head and the Democrats doing their best Kaa imitation. . .Trusssssssst in me, Jusssssssst in me. Shiver!

What can men do against such reckless hate?

Ride out and meet them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


http://littlegreenfootballs.com/article/31461_Bidens_Lies_Ignored_by_Media

Shabbat Shalom

It was evening and it was morning. On the sixth day the heavens and the earth and all their hosts were completed. For by the seventh day God had completed the work which he had made, and God rested on the seventh day from all the work which he had made.

Then God blessed the seventh day and hallowed it, because on it God rested from the work which he had created to make.

Blessed are You, Eternal our God, Ruling Presence of the Universe, Creator of the fruit of the vine.
Blessed are You, Eternal our God, Ruling Presence of the Universe, who has sanctified us with commandments and finds favor in us; giving us the holy Sabbath as a heritage in love and favor, a remembrance of the creation, that day being also the first among all the holy occasions, a reminder of the Exodus from Egypt.

For You have chosen us and hallowed us above all nations to benefit from and to endure the burden of being a chosen people, to be different, giving us Your holy Sabbath as a heritage in love and favor and at times sorrow and intolerance from those who would not understand. We are grateful and pray thanks for our lives as Jews.

Blessed are You, Eternal One, who sanctifies the Sabbath.

A Disturbed Moment

Go!
I want to tear a big hole in what is to be,
To end all this infatuation with unity,
I'm seeking my salvation alone again,
I never needed to be one of you anyway
Don't wanna be another player losing in this game
I'm trying to impress upon you
We're not the same
My own individuality is so unique,
I'm one impressive mother-fucker
Now, wouldn't you say
(Break apart and)
Divide, Divide, Divide, Divide,
You might say that I'm the last man standing now,
And though you'll try, you'll never find a way to break me
You might say that I'm sick of being lost in the crowd,
I hear the sirens but they're never gonna take me
I am a little more provocative then you might be,
It is your shock and then your horror on which I feed
So can you tell me what exactly does freedom mean,
If I'm not free to be as twisted as I wanna be
Don't wanna be another player losing in this game
I'm trying to impress upon you
We're not the same
My psychotic mentality is so unique
I'm one aggressive mother-fucker
Now, wouldn't you say
(Break apart and)
Divide, Divide, Divide, Divide
You might say that I'm the last man standing now,
And though you'll try, you'll never find a way to break me
You might say that I'm sick of being lost in the crowd,
I hear the sirens but they're never gonna take me
(They won't take me)Break, Break, Break, Break
(Break apart and divide)
Break, Break, Break, Break
(Break apart and divide)
Break, Break, Break, Break
(Break apart and divide divide divide)
Break apart and... Divide, Divide, Divide, Divide
Divide, Divide, break apart and divide
Divide, Divide, Divide, Divide
Divide, Divide, break apart and
Divide, Divide, Divide, Divide
Divide, Divide, break apart and divide
Divide, Divide, Divide, Divide
Divide, Divide, Divide, Divide

Good Luck, Sarah

I know that tonight many people are just waiting, drooling in hopes that by this time tomorrow some footage will be looping on Kos and HuffPo about your mistakes, and I know popcorn and libations will be spilled, and whoops of joy and jeer will sound on college campuses and in homes all over the place if and when those moments come. . .I know, several of them have my email address. Many of them call themselves "scholars" as well. . .

I just wanted to say, that I hope you do yourself proud. I know that this has been horrible,and G-d willing, these horrible attacks will cause attacks of conscience for the people responsible, and that no matter what the election day results are, I hope some of the people will look at their behavior when it came to your children and your status as mother and be ashamed of their actions.

Sarah Bernhart is already pondering her actions- remember when she was joking about Black men gang raping you?

http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/2085877/posts

Funnnneeee stuff, but she just was dropped from a luncheon for battered women. . .for women who have really suffered sexual violence, and she, get this, blamed a vast Right wing conspiracy!


http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,431617,00.html

So, it's possible. . .anything's possible. . .

Mazel Tov, Sarah!

Asthma sucks

it really does. . .during the holiday Cocoa had a major attack, brought on by weather change and a cold- and well, she is now all dosed up and well. . .

She missed getting her "Student of the Month" for kindness this month. . .

Fucking asthma. . .kept my baby girl from getting her kindness award- proof that nature CAN overcome nurture. . .;)

Baby step to dissertation

First draft of prelim reading list turned in. . .one day early!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No really- hold your applause. . .really nothing, no big whoop. . .

Score for those of you keeping track;

Rainmom 1

Dissertation ZERO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My 200th Post and a surprise topic. . .

Dear Abba,

Bet you never thought you'd be a blog entry, since you died before the Internet really caught on big. It has been 14 years, almost 15 now, and I still think of you every day, and yeah- for the most part, Abba, I resented you. . .but I have to be honest now, Dad, I have to tell you somehow, that I now understand so much of what you were, and I now understand so much of what went into the shaping of your parental style.

The stories you told- I am so sorry that I really did not understand, but I am so damn grateful that you repeated them, I remember them all, and I tell your kinderlach all the time. . . you know the funny ones, about how you learned certain English words, and how you used to try to teach Savta those words, how quickly you learned the swear words, and all of the ways you tried to show how "American" you were. . .all the way to Viet Nam, and back to show how glad you were to be in this country.

I remember the stories from the Ukraine, the shtetel that Savta came from, the arranged marriage that lasted 30 years, the pogroms that led to emigration, and the way your face changed when you talked about the people left behind that were never heard from again after 1943. I remember the pride in your face when you wore your uniform how you stood so tall. . .all 5 feet 9 of you. . .how proud you were of Jeff and Jonah when they also enlisted. . .and how you and Jeff teased Jonah for joining the Navy.

I know that many of the things about me that people say they respect and admire came from you, Ema did not have that and it was actually a combination of your influence and my INTENSE desire to the the COMPLETE opposite of Ema that I sit here today- struggling in a life I did not really choose, reaching for a goal that may not mean shit, and still going forward, because you taught me never to quit.

I have to be honest, you were right in many things, it is almost impossible to be both mom and worker. . .I resented the implication that because I was a woman, I could not do it. But I remember the last talk we had before you died- the one where you were looking forward to meeting your 3rd grandson, as soon as your "cold" cleared and how you could not wait to see how much he looks like you! Remember? You told me that you were proud of who I was, and even though I did not always listen, I always heard you. I was already saying I wanted to go back to work, and remember? You told me that day that women COULD do it all, it was an option, but that the world ran on rules that rich men wrote, and that so long as rich men wrote the rules, they would never really care what it meant to be a woman, they would just pretend to. . .and that would always make it impossible for women to really be equal. Moms worked hard, but it was the wrong KIND of work, seen as low skill, like your job as a soldier. You remember? Remember how you told me to continue on as that soldier? And not to quit until never? That if things were going to change then someone had to stand up, and not back off, and that no matter what happened, I would be able to hold my head up. ..and be proud of my actions? You warned me it would hurt, and you said that people would not be kind, but you urged me to stick to my beliefs, and not worry about the consequences. . . .you told me to remember that when you were in combat you thought about the family you wanted to have someday, and how you refused to give up wanting that dream, remember telling me not to give up?



I remember Abba, I remember you every day- I named Precious after you. . .I remember everything, Abba.

Thank you for it all, I love you.

A lot to think about this Yontif. . .

So, in the space of a few days, the polls reveal that Obama is increasing his lead over McCain, prompting my inbox to quickly fill with forwards about this fact- because, you know, they are all over this change. . .from decent civil discourse and debating facts and such. . .oh that is SOOOOO old school, manners, come ON!

No, the changelings that fill my inbox are not very concerned about class or manners, or tact or and this is great. . they are not at all concerned with facts, nope, anything horrible that anyone can think of . . .my fav so far has been a Kos blog that stated that because Palin changed the spelling of her kid's name. . .well, you know, that means she lied about what his name was. . .priceless-

Yes, the poll information is there, and I see it, and when McCain was doing well, did I do the same? I could have, but that is kind of what the change thing was talking about, right? Riiiight. If the behavior of the changelings is any indication of what life under the Obama regime will be. . .well, all I will say is that I hope that all of you are ready for the world you are creating- where jokes about Down Syndrome kids and skin cancer are a ok, so long as they are about the "Right" people, and I hope you are ready for a world where someone other than you gets to decided what the truth is. . .and I hope you are going to be willing to see this all through- and that all of the stars in Hollywood, the elite and rich are ready to pony up their excessive cash- give up their lavish lives. . .just like Obama says. . .without using loopholes and excuses or moving out of the country- c'mon Hollywood! Joe says that the high taxes are to show your patriotism. . .fuck joining the Armed Forces and all. . .that is all over with! Throw YOUR money at it all, Hollywood! Oh, and if that is what you want, to pay more, I hope all of you who vote for income redistribution and an outmoded organizational model MEANT to be efficient but is not. . .will be willing to pay MY share of things. . .since I will still be working, not waiting for aid from the Great American Giveaway. . .

But I am much better off than many on either side of this brutal display of unchecked rumormongering and blind faith in party politics- no matter what happenes, at the very least, I am no longer laboring under the false consciencousness that LIBERAL people are tolerant and are for the rights of all women. This election has showed my that while my liberal women friends expect me to support their causes and beliefs, mine are not worthy. That only the "left" kind of woman will be supported. . .and well, for that revelation, I am grateful.

I would be lying if I said that I will not miss the illusion of "being in it together", but it hurts less in this context- and well, it was a necessary, if painful reminder that for many women, their worst critics are women who will maybe someday regret their actions and inactions to aid the cause of women. . .by making the gender issues political, they provide sound bites for those that would want to keep the status quo. . .and well, I am sorry for them. . .and they can join me on the front lines anytime.

I'll be waiting.